i dropped off the face of the earth, or at least…i tried very hard to.
i didn’t succeed, quite obviously.
am I disappointed?
I don’t know, any more. I don’t…want to die. Not really.
I just wanted the pain to stop so badly. I don’t remember much…hugging my pink cat to my chest, wetting his silly spotted fur with my tears, apologising to him.
I still want the pain to stop. I want to go one day without crying out of frustration, or pain, or despair. Or for any reason, come to think about it…
Give me wings, starlight, and shimmering shadow things…